a new person.

didn't really think much about how time has change its course and took its toll on me. not till one of my close friend confronted me about it. then it opened my eyes a little bit more and slowly i'm seeing a whole different scenery. was a big time wild girl before and did things that weren't that proud of it now thinking of it. but this year had a big change on me. i didn't barely drink and i'm clean and not so much of a party girl anymore. i do still enjoy a good drink and some high fun parties but not hardcore anymore. it was a good confrontation.i didnt realize myself how much things changed till last night, and i would say its a good change. the old me is dead and gone. and i dont think i want to go back down that road. but yeah other than that, all the problems that pop along will always be problems. i was told i was a big mess before. but i got a lot of improvement so i'm happy. i know how to think more now and follow my instincts. i know my limits better now. and no matter what anyone does people will still talk. but i know myself and what i am doing now. so yeah. its all good. bad girl gone good. and proud of it. we'll no need to go in details. if you knew me before and still know me now. you'll see it. and if you didn't know me last time. well lets leave it as that. everyone deserves a second chance.

the person who was supposingly watching my back is the person stabbing me with a knife.

honesty is the best policy.

words been thrown around too much. and i'm putting a stop to this starting with myself. whatever lies or bullshit anyone has to tell me. i'll listen but i wont be believing any shit for a long time. how could you do that. take a walk in someone else shoes and tell me how does it feel to be in that persons life. aint easy hmm.. well then stop. innocent people getting fucked for your mistakes. no more. i'm done. just because i keep my mouth shut doesn't mean nothing is wrong. just dont push me over the line. dont cross my red lights. it'll all fall back to you.