change part 2 :)

well had no class yesterday and today ahha...yesterday was so stoned...but it wasnt the crazy happy laughing me..haha i was pretty serious..and was with elle having girl talk and all..haha about guys...and some other things...we went to adams and then chilled in a smokey bathroom ahha..wasnt so bad...just felt like a sauna room..i drove up :P...secretly hha...hope my mom doesnt read this:P...so yeah then went to desa played some pool...trashed elle :P..haha but i suck anyway just luck then these two guys wanted to play with us..we went off to the foosball section and played a game and left to Nobel..we surfed the net then played left 4 dead couldnt play team haha..it was pretty lag..but wasnt so bad...havnt been to cc for a long time..miss going there with shaf and all though...hahah good times:)...well right now...im pretty much a go for anything...seeing that i completely commited myself as a house wife to shaf(on my count)...it wasnt so bad at all...but yeah..now im just being me :P...fluctuating haha...well tuesday at 1.01 bored and hungry doing a facial with elle now ahha..maybe going movie with zawir and all..and lunch with rach and kelvin...hmm..so yeah...besides this...i realize i shouldnt be emo and sad anymore..id have to say...i cherish and enjoyed every moment i had and i dont regret anything. so i guess i should just be happy knowing he is now(i think) the least i can do now is remember everything we had cause honestly...it seemed so perfect just a little glicthes here and there...despite family issues and friends and love life pretty much not so good now...well im not gonna talk about family nor friends...theyre been great some of them but lots of drama and shits been happening..well things got a bit to fucked up with these two guys i dont know...i turned down one and the other is just acting weird cause we had this talk..now he doesnt want anything from me..well i did tell him and give him heads up that im vulnerable and im not into relationships right now...so now were friends..i was rlly upset that it happend...but wtv...who were we kidding..we dont even have that much in common and plus if we ever got together i would just hurt him...looking at the things im doing now...going out...partying and just doing wtv on my own time...im not interested in commiting..not for awhile..i still love my x...and my heart is closed so yeah..and this other dude..he's cool with it..he completely understands me..but i think he has a thing with some other girl so yeah..ahha..but its ok..i dont expect anything..i just love him company and he's one of my bestfriends...since form3 we got close so yeah...things are looking better slightly at some points so its all gonna be alright..im just gonna keep my head up and go with the flow.

thats the new me you're gonna see teehee :D