sad.

i feel like there's this timer in me. its going to go off anytime. i wouldnt even know when. things are complicated. friends are drifting apart and people change. i wish everyone could just get together and i just wish there was more time in a day cause there's just too much to do. i want my friends to be close to my heart. but things change. i talked to my dad after nearly 2 months. i want this family to work. but its damaged. i want everyone to just come together at a family dinner and say our appreciation. mum and dad's side. i want the people i love and loved to be part of me and not just fade away. i miss everyone and everything. ive had friends pass away and almost passed away. and this world is getting so hectic there's just no space to breathe anymore. i miss the times we shared. the memories. things have changed so much and drifting is my biggest enemy. the things we never known. or never will be. i just wish the world was peaceful and everyone would just be happy. like paradise it will never be on earth. diseases. crimes. suicides. lifestyle. nothing is perfect. i pains me to see. the world is falling apart. we're coming closer to the end of the world. we're coming closer to judgement day. MJ is gone. People are passing by before our eyes. world is evolving before our senses. and theres nothing that will stop from depleting. its sad and a depressing world. no matter what we make do. the lingering thoughts of my life and other peoples. the world infact. cruelty is so prone. love is fading. belief is diminishing. where are we now. no morals. no respect. no dignity. as lives slip away and dreams are crushed. i sit here wondering. how do people go by. day by day. without feeling remorse and emotion. walking by. seeing nothing but their greed. loving no one but themselves. "family. friends. love. life."