suicide.

i never promised you this was going to be easy and i didnt say it wouldnt hurt. and sometimes when its time to let go of whatever you hold on to. then you must. i need time and space. i'm trying to be strong on the inside. but no one really knows what going on in my mind and what im thinking about. my hearts closed and i know and i might be wrong. but no matter how i try. i lost myself. im drowning in the water and am trying to pick up the pieces. time is all i need right now. and going with the flow is all i have. so please understand if sometimes i just disappear. i love each and everyone of you. but things change sometimes. sometimes for the better. choices and regrets are part of life and i am living to that challenge. the more i try to stay strong the more suicide comes to mind. but im doing all i can to let go of everything and be myself again. be truely happy and free. till then...