Baby boy.

Baby, I see you in my dreams every night and you're always on my mind when I see something familiar we use to do together then I think back about how I neglected you, ignored you, argued and walked away from you. But somehow I'd always know we'd always be okay, you always sat on the left side of the bed in your room with your head in your hands. I'd call your name and you look up at me with those shimmering eyes and they're so blue and as I walk over to hug you from the back, you'd pull me over to sit on your lap, and end the fight with a kiss and just sleep in. But I took you forgranted, I wasn't faithful, I was just too blind to see how much you loved me. We were like a switch, on and off for the pass 3 years then suddenly when I finally knew I'd never find a man like you, I was already too late, I was already in a relationship with someone else, and you had given your heart away. I was so broken and regreted and now I knew how you felt.

So I couldn't face the shame and I turned my back on you. You begged me to stay by your arms but somehow I didn't, I couldn't. I felt too guilty. We didn't speak for months. But I always remembered, the vacations we had, the times we played around like kids, silly games, kissing in the sunset, sleeping in the back of your car by the beach. Nothing could compare to that, when it was you and me. One fine day, we met up, but the only thing we decided to do was argue about you cheating on me and me cheating on you. This time the argument was surreal, we knew there wasn't a turning back. For 3 years, I loved you but the words never came out of my mouth, maybe because you never said it too. We didn't make up this time as I saw you take off and before you left, you turned back and I saw those eyes I love to stare in at night, in so much pain and I know how much of a man he was to not want to show me his tears, but this time he couldn't hold it in, I saw his tears roll down his cheek and he was gone in a split second. Then next thing I knew the phone rang, and you got yourself in a terrible accident, I couldn't breathe and I dropped to the ground. I prayed it was all just a dream when I hit conciousness, and until today I still don't believe you're gone, I keep thinking you're alive somewhere avoiding me so I'd never break your heart again,baby, I miss you so much. I never got the chance to say I love you, from the core of my heart. When I found out you tattooed my name in love's purpose on your arm, I couldn't forgive myself. You're gone, but I can't accept the fact. I love you and my heart will only give pure love to you, boo.No one will ever take my heart away from you. I love you, forever and always.

Cheers to your favourite drink, sweetheart. Loving you always.

Nothing clearer.

                      Life
begins when you know it's time to step up,

 create a sort of aura around yourself ; sort of like a safety zone.

              No one's going to walk out the door behind you anymore.

 All they could say was time to grow up and make a difference in the

 world, make a change, for you.

                          Then you'll walk out the door and prepare yourself,

 for the biggest quest of your life.

Then as you walk on broken glass
                         the next time you will always

                                          remember to put on your shoes. We take chances.

                                                                                          But we tend to forget vulnerability.

                                                                                                                             The form of being human.

The first and last step would

                            be the hardest but the process will be bitter sweet,

                depending on the choices,

you make and the opinions you take.

                    One path way,

                            diverging into two.

What would you do when your life goes bad,

                                    things go wrong,

                                       nothing goes according to plan

                                          you feel like giving up 

                                               breaking down.

                           Then just storming into the rain

                 to feel the cold water hit you to your knees,

          then just lie there and watch you life slip away.

Will you

        walk away, and leave it empty, speechless, lifeless?

Or would

         you take a breath and walk,

not away but to think, then realize before it is too late,

          to turn back as the wind blows across your face

   for you to see that every mess can be cleaned up.

          

     

                Take a seat, place a mirror infront of you. Close your eyes.

Take a breath, look at the reflection with your heart,

                   

                Look at yourself and be sure, you would be able

       To stand tall, or at least, crawl till you're strong enough,

                        To walk again, to dash across the waves of the ocean.

                Trust yourself and take the odds, cause you'll never know

                               It'll be too late.

                                                                       

Face the problem and take the circumstances,

      even if it blows you in your face

                       and you tears you apart.

Find an aspect of this wind

                   to make it flow the right way,

          to take it the right way and to bring out the beutiful,

part of you or someone you love and it may be,

      the greatest achievement of all,

seeing someone you love,

                     overjoyed with tears on their cheeks
                             laughter in their eyes.

So when it all comes down to giving a little

saving a little

and push a little

it doesn't take so much anymore.

The least we could do in living in the world

of black and white,

 is to put on a smile and forget

about the world cause by now

 you should already know

 what you critic and determine about you\

 life is yours to hold not anyone elses,

 in this evolving society,

to make ourselves happy,

and the ones we adore

 we should just smile.

                                                                                                       andreaalexis.<3